LONDON - 52-year-old singer, R Kelly has recently been the subject of docuseries Surviving R Kelly - which featured woman claiming he had used his position to abuse women and young girls for decades - and Buku Abi admitted she has been "deeply affected" the programme and has found it "very difficult" to process the revelations.
She wrote in a lengthy post on her Instagram Stories: "Before I start I just want it to be known that I am speaking from the heart, nothing I say or do not say is to hurt ANY party reading this or affected by this. "
“To the people that feel I should be speaking up/against everything that is going on right now. I just want you all to understand that devastated is an understatement for all that I feel currently. "
"I do apologise if my silence to all that is happening comes off as careless. That is my last intention. I pray for all the families & women who have been affected by my father’s actions. Trust, I have been deeply affected by all of this. "
"However, it has been very difficult to process it all, let alone gather all the right words to express everything I feel. "
Buku - whose real name is Joann Kelly - clarified she, her mother and her siblings haven' had a relationship with the I Believe I Can Fly singer for "years" following many challenges "regarding him, his life decisions and his last name. "
And the singer/songwriter admitted she'd been left unhappy about people bombarding her with messages saying she should have spoken out about her famous father before now.
She continued: "My mother, siblings and I would never condone, support or be a part of ANYTHING negative he has done and or continues to do in his life. "
"Going through all I have gone through in my life, I would never want anyone to feel the pain I have felt. "
"Reminders of how terrible my father is, and how we should be speaking up against him, rude comments about my family, fabricating me, my siblings & our mothers 'part' etc. Does not help my family (Me, my sister, my brother, and my mother) in our healing process. Nor does it allow a safe space for other victims who are scared to speak up, speak up. "
"The same monster you all confronting me about is my father. I am aware of who and what he is. I grew up in that house. "
She wrote: "My choice not to speak on him and what he does is for my peace of mind. My emotional state. And for MY healing. "
"I have to do & move in a manner that is best for me. I pray anyone who reads this understands I put nothing but good intent behind each word. "
She further wrote: "This past year for my family has been very difficult, all the love and support you all continue to show is why we keep going. You all fuel us. "
"Family, friends, followers, fans, etc... I love you guys to pieces. Your love is appreciated & always will be. "
Kelly, 52, has denied all the allegations made against him and has threatened legal action against his accusers and the makers of the series.